Here I am when the year ends...

This year was most dreadful ever...The year was full of eye-opening, heart wrenching, soul tormenting moments. Unlike most years that have passed which helped me grow a little, made me love a little more, made me look forward with anticipation, this year is ending on a silent note, absolutely nothing more to offer..

I always dreaded beginning of any year...The pressure of anticipation was too high. When I look back, none of the years I remember have started on a happy note, but fortunately ended as one. But this year was different..It was so full of drama, that it broke all the previous records of melancholy.

But I realized few things...not that I like any of them..but still I realized few things..

I am adamant. I will do what I want. I never knew before that I have this trait. I thought I am a submissive character. Looks like I am not.

When I believe in something, I hold on to it till the end..Let it be People or Passion or Emotion..I am loyal to it.

Family, friends, Love change just as much as they stay the same. Any relationship, any bond needs time, attention, love, care and endless hard work. Nothing comes easy and nothing stays forever...

I can remember every hard word spoken to me, in verbatim. Probably the date as well...

Compliments are rare. Must learn to accept them and believe them as well.

I may not be my best Judge, but I sure am my worst critic.

I have forgotten how to make friends.

At the tail end of another year, I am still failing to make people understand me...