Me and Him II

When I first came to know about him, I was just a 13 year old giggly and silly self..though some of my friends and relatives knew about him, no one ever discussed much. Even now when I rake my brains hard, I don’t exactly remember how he came into my life. But, when he came , he came to stay forever. If someone ask me the top list of influences in my life, his name would come first. I vaguely remember someone showing me a picture of him. When I looked into those soulful eyes in the picture, a cord struck and a connection was made...

Then I saw him everywhere..friends' houses, on streets, in malls, in movies..actually wherever I went. He slowly got into my system I should say..The first thought when I got up everyday and the last thought when I slipped into sleep was his. As days went by, my love and devotion for him grew leaps and bounds..obviously when something grows out of moderation becomes obvious! So is my love for him..everyone started noticing it. Some thought it is pure insanity, while others just watched me in awe. While few really appreciated.. few felt that I should be left alone...whatever were the reactions, me and him were noticeable! My madness was such..whenever I wrote something, I would start it with his name!

We met almost everyday..I would rush to meet him, bring him goodies..sometimes fruits, sometimes flowers, sometimes just whatever I have handy...and sat there enjoying his presence. We seldom talked..but when we talked, it was mostly me. He would sit there with this serene look and watched me with loving eyes. I went to him with all my sorrows, joys and idiosyncrasies. Whenever I saw him, either tears would roll up my eyes or a wide smile lit up my face..whatever it was, it was pure ecstasy to be in his presence. Just watching him and his smile was sheer ecstasy. Sometimes when he is free, I would sit at his feet and press them..I would say nothing is compared to the joy that being with him gave me. He is like a God, Father, Mentor and Friend to me!

Then days passed by…my job demanded me to travel out of India..to USA..though I was excited I was sad too..because he was not coming with me..I just carried a small picture of him, some literature and whole lot of memories, but my heart and soul stayed back with him…

In US, his memories kept haunting me. I tried finding him in my thoughts, replenish his memories..but nothing really worked..I was missing him! Then..someone told me that he is in US and is actually staying pretty near to my place..I rushed to his place…when our eyes met, while I cried with happiness, he just looked at me and smiled..My life is complete again! Love you SAI! Love you forever!!